April 2011
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The Waiting Game
I’m happy to learn that I’m a good person, really. But how long do good people wait? I’ve been the patient one. Because I’m better at waiting than most. The understanding one. Because I DO understand. Honest because I can be, because it doesn’t always sound better, but it feels better. How long do honest people wait to hear the truth in return? To have something...
“You can’t give up on the things you like so easily.”
– (via tryandfail)
“I just heard thunder and thought of you.”
– E.L.
So, it turns out people read this. How cool is that? The answer is “Very cool.”
Before I worked at the flower shop that I work at now, I worked at a theater. For the total of one month. I hated the job, but looking back, I loved myself at the job. There are times in your life when you look back and realize that you would not do anything differently. I was myself there, I was myself to...
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Love just doesn’t work out. You have two options: you stay in it forever, or it ends and it hurts. I have to question whether the whole “better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all” cliche is true. I think someone who was going through the end stages of a break up said this. Then a person apprehensive about entering a relationship read it, took it as fact, and...
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I just fell off my dinosaur.
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6 Inch stilettos
The funny thing about uncomfortable shoes is that we can feel them pressing, squeezing,numbing and rubbing off pieces of skin, and yet we tolerate it. The even funnier thing about uncomfortable shoes is that when we try to put them back on after a few minutes of relief, the pain is unbearable. Inexcusable. We wonder how we could have been walking in them just minutes before.
It is amazing what we...
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To the brim
Full of full of full of expectations. My world of “shoulds” was perfect for managing childhood chaos and creating a mechanism to guage when I got out of dysfunctional waters.
However, I’m driving myself crazy. How great would it be to go back to the days when what you had was what it was and that was all?
Let’s see. Right now, my room is a good temperature, things are...
Shapeshifting
I was trying to ask him about acceptance. And how it works. I told him that I’m sick of accepting; because once again I become the person who bites her tongue. The bigger person. He shook his head, and did the dance of dispelling. I love when he does that.
I was trying to understand how to accept without staying the same. How to accept while still having an opinion. How to accept while...
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Pills
There are lots of red flags indicating that something’s wrong. The fact that I can’t hear my thoughts without giving into them. The way that I can’t sit still without feeling guilty. And finally, how I can’t sleep without my favorite little blue tylenol pm. 2, with a swig of water. I’m worried and thinking about everything, but I’ve been doing it so long that...
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8:59
And just like that, the heartache was gone; I was swimming in dreams
